Finding Numi

So you remember how we all went to boracay 2 weeks ago? We set on a quest to find a very rare kind of mammal under the sea. We did not have an underwater cam, buti nalang my sister had this zip lock for camera thing that allowed us to take photos in underwater and thus getting a shot or two of the rare mammal that, as I heard, is the cutest thing on earth. haha!

Presenting.. numi! or should i say.. nu-ME (gets gets? ) hahaha

                                                         
Finding Numi. hahahaha! Bow.

UPDATED:

since i recently found out that there are actually, exactly, 2 people who bothered to click on my blog.. to defend my dignity.. i have a "cooler" shot of this Numi under the Sea. haha!

Yes, kaya cool kasi may shades. HAHAHA

UPDATED AGAIN:

and since i found out my good friend sansan bothered looking at this soupy blogpost, here's for you @sansanitamiamor :

Finding Sani

Circa 2008

Wild, HUH. you never dare to get this kitty mad. LOL 

Because i cant tell you

I dont owe you an explanaion but i will anyway. I didn't plan it, if that is what you were thinking. I did not know you were there. Besides, we were out as two friends who have not seen each other for the longest time. Besides, she has her own guy. Besides, i wont ever do that to you. And you did not have to do what you did tonight. I did not have to see it. But maybe i do, too. Because i realize i have gone a huge step towards getting better. Perhaps, i needed that to confirm to myself that i have accepted our fate. I tried to cry, but somehow i didnt. Maybe i was happy for you. Maybe i am. But i still do miss the "old times". It used to be us. But sometimes things fall apart to make way for better ones. And maybe you are happy. Then i am happy for you. Besides, you deserve the best. We both do. And only God knows what it is.

By the way, you still catch me with your simple jeans and shirt. Stay beautiful, inside and out.



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5 Bros and a Bride

My sister went home for around 10 days to attend a wedding in Boracay. The
family ended up going with her for a sort of family summer vacay. it was one of the best vacations we had because we were.. complete. Anyway, my sister went back to NZ today. It's always more fun when she's around. I dunno, i feel much more safe. maybe because i really am the bunso or youngest and that i always feel that i'm safe whenever my ate is around. she's a strong woman, you know. tough, brave and smart, too. plus, the H6, as we call ourselves, is always tougher when complete. parang voltes 5 lang yan, pero uhh 6 kami.  pic above is our photo in boracay with my sister-in-law and baby theon. So nice to have a family as fun as the legendary hernandez 6.Here's a video of the onsite AVP of my sister's wedding back in October last year.

Just another day

it is going to be the first time in 4 years that i won't be planning anything for tomorrow, June 10. for the past years ever since half my college life, 10th of June has always been special. it was when i made a promise to someone that "i'd be on her side" to which i faithfully did as much as i can. I remember the tireless weeks of planning and planning, taking photos, editing videos, pulling out the perfect song. I remember the pizza, the balloons, the cake and that simple gesture of hug on the street. I also remember the 'slumber party' and how i managed to cook my very first red-sauced pasta and nachos. The cheese dip and sauce were awesome, to say the least. I remember the website I put up so friends all over the world can write on it. i remember making a semi- Dr. Seuss poem that i don't think was appreciated as much as I was excited about it. I remember the book of compiled secrets and how I attached my own secret on it. And I remember how she promised me nothing will ever change once the school year starts-- everything started to change 2 weeks after.

These, for a fact, were fun times. This is why I have been conflicted the past few days. For the first time in 4 years, June 10 will be a normal day. no gimiks, no surprises, no cakes, no songs. Just another day. And though I have a chance of doing something because i still care, I probably won't. It's not because I don't care anymore, but it's because I just want to start getting used to June 10 not being special. besides, I am already getting used to not having her around. besides, she was the one who decided to go. Thing is, I still feel like I need to do something just so her day won't be a waste.  because i still care about her. Because, once in my lifetime, i did love her. And though I know everyone who knew of what I've been through the past year would definitely disagree or be mad at me.. part of me is still saying: just this one last time. 

Happy Birthday.

Christmas in May

it’s kind of weird that I am listening to Christmas tunes right now. It’s (only) the 23^rd of May so Christmas time isn’t due until the BER months but somehow, I just found it interesting to listen to these tunes. I don’t know, maybe because of the gloomy weather we have, setting up the mood and all. It’s actually kind of chilly but I wouldn’t count that because I am inside the office and of course we do have our air-conditioning system at full blast. But still, my mood somehow looked for the Christmas tunes. Not the usual tunes though, like the classics. These are music from various artists such as Dashboard Confessionals and Deathcab for cutie. Just sharing.

What is it with Christmas really, that makes people become more generous and all? Well, I think because of the unspoken rule that Christmas time is time of giving— at least for the Catholic Church—that is; from Santa to God giving his only Son. And because of this, workers seem to get more than their average salaries and they get bonuses and somehow they are obliged to share these small blessings. Wouldn’t it be better to have Christmas season every month? More money, more giving, more gifts for kids and as cheesy as it may sound—more love.

My guess, why I suddenly looked forward to the season is because there are just so much hatred around me right now; On a small scale like in the workplace, among friends and most especially among the society. Especially now that there are ongoing political debates on a passage of a certain Reproductive Health Bill which continues to divide the country among their political, religious and social belief. There are so much hurt, so much anger and so much emotions running around the world. Again, wouldn’t it be nice to push in fastforward to the only season when people seem to be a little more giving, a little more caring and gentle. For a change, no matter what religious belief you guys follow, let’s try sharing forgiveness and peace. Let’s accept that we have our own views, our own choices and our own freedom. Let’s not teach our values to others—let’s live by our own moral values—by ‘moral’ I mean living a life where you don’t hurt other people with the decisions you make.

So I declare that starting today, it’s Christmas time. At least in terms of giving things that are immaterial which most often are more important. Have a very merry Christmas! 

Time catching up

Not today, tomorrow, or someday soon.
written in August of 2008. 

it was drizzling, and there was a slight wind that touched our faces. we, at the moment, were quite sure of the place we are at that time. me, standing close to her, staring at her lovely face and she, looking directly at my eyes as if searching my entire soul. i put my hands around her waist, as she placed hers around my neck. i gave her a warm hug. that time, we were solitary. i never felt more secured. she, tightly pressing her whole entity into mine.. i. gently putting her close to me as if we've never seen each other for a long time. it seemed like it lasted for hours, even though the fantasy lasted for only about a quarter of a minute.. i wanted it never to last.. i knew, i could be in that same spot and do the same thing for a day or maybe two. i softly whispered words, that i know she didn't hear. as we return to our own existence, softly removing our locked hands, she leaned to me and kissed me. that was it. in the middle of the cold night, i felt the warmest lips gently touching my face.

Before we parted ways, i whispered to her, "if people always leave.. and you or i have to leave one day.. that day won't be today, tomorrow, or someday soon. as long as i can, i'll be here."

there were no stars in the sky. but i surely held one, in my hands that night.

Singing.

Tiger, Tiger,
You are the dreamer
Why won’t you inspire me tonight?

Tiger, tiger,
There’s something about her
That brings the world to a stop.

I’m taken away by your foolish charm.
Will go on and say, dear, won’t you be mine?
There’s not much to say, no alibis
I just want you to stay here with me tonight.

Tiger, Tiger,
We were good together,
Why was I so afraid?

We’ve gone so much further
Away from each other
Now destiny’s futile on us.

I’m taken away by your foolish charm.
Will go on and say, dear, won’t you be mine?
There’s not much to say, no alibis
Can I stay here for another chance?

You took me away with your foolish charm.
And now I just say, dear, I love you now.
If I were to stay here, will you be glad?
And if not, I just want to hold your hand.

Tiger, tiger,
You are the dreamer,
You inspired me to write.



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