Kailangan nating maghiwalay

This was written by a good mentor and friend, Mr. Ron Capinding aka RoboCap.


Kailangan nating maghiwalay
upang malaman natin kalaunan
kung mayroon nga tayong pinagsamahan,
kung buo pa rin tayong dalawa kahit wala na 'yung isa,
kung mabibitbit ba natin ang pinagsaluhan nating mga sarap kahit tapos na ang salu-salo,
kung magaling nga tayong magtanim ng mga halamang hindi habambuhay na aasa sa hardinero,

at kung maisasakatuparan ba natin
at mapalalaganap nang libong doble pa
ang mga sarili at pangarap na magkasabay nating hinubog.
"Hindi ang isa't isa ang tinitingnan ng mga nagmamahalan,
kundi ang kanilang iisang hantungan." (Kahlil Gibran)


Sa mundong bilog,
maghihiwalay tayo,
palayo sa isa't isa,
at magsisikap umabot sa pinakamalayo nating maaabot.


At dahil bilog nga ang mundo,
magkakasalubong muli tayo kung hindi tayo titigil sa pag-usad.
At dahil marami na tayong pinagdaanan sa pagkakataong ito,
mas mayaman na ang mga babaunin nating mapagsasaluhan.
At dahil hindi natin binitawan ang tamis ng dating ugnayan,
parang pag-uwi ang muli nating pagkikita,
magbabatian tayo sa lumang paraang nakagawian,
magkakamayan dahil sa kani-kaniyang naging kapalaran,
magkukumustahan upang makahabol sa mga bagay na 'di na natin nasubaybayan,

at saka tayo mahigpit na mahigpit,
tigib ng pangungulila at pag-ibig
at parang kahapon lamang,

na magyayakapan.

Hanggang sa muli...

Hiwalayan lang ito, hindi paalaman,




at kay tamis ng pangako ng hiwalayan!

because basketball is a good metaphor for everything.

you know like in a game of basketball, 

when you're down by 20 points 

and suddenly you make a run in the last 2 minutes and scored 19 straight,

putting the lead down to a single possession with 10 secs left at game clock

then the opponent hits a three to push the lead back up and only a single second to go.

cold-blooded three-pointer. 

you know, that feeling when you see that ball trickle in the basket;

cold sweat, hard thumping in the chest.

you lose confidence, you lose faith.

your mind gets disoriented. 

And in less than a second, you tell yourself all the good things to compose yourself back;

“you did your best.”

“it was a hard fought game.”

“all heart. True fighter.”

You get the ball, throw a prayer

and the ball goes in.

And you’re still down a point, the buzzer sounds.

Game is over.

And again, you tell yourself all the good things to compose yourself back.

“you did even more than the best.”

“you fought hard ‘til the end.”

“you had THE never-say-die attitude.”

It was a good game.

Say, you scored 29 pts,

Dished out 24 assts,

Grabbed 13 rebs, 7 steals, 2 blks.

Only 3 turnovers.

It was a good game.

People come to you saying all these good stuff;

“You were a monster out there.”

“such a fighter.”

“you did the best you could.”

“you have a heart of a true champion.”

Bullshit.

you’re an athlete.

A loss is a loss.

What you did was not enough.

A loss is always a loss.

A loss is always a loss and a loss is always hard to swallow.

You’re a competitor.

You know how to fall hard.

You know how to stand-up.

Today, the game’s not yours.

You walk out with your head down.

But the moment this day ends,

You know you’ve got to rise back up.

Step-back up.

With head high up with pride.

On to the next ball-game.

it was cold-blooded.
no question asked, no advise, none.
at a swing of fate,
she was gone.

she didn't leave any marks behind.
no word, no apologies.
it was as if she didn't exist.
as if I did not exist.

as if she did not ask me to stay.

Law of Attraction

It’s the start of a new decade. Looking forward to this one. Maybe it’s best to list things I want to do or I would want to achive!

1. I want to watch World Cup LIVE either in Brazil or in Russia. It would be great if I’d be able to watch and support the azkals but I think that’s for the next decade. Hopefully in Qatar.
2. After this decade I’d be 33. (what?? 33!!) It would be great to have settled down by then, and having a family with kids and all.
3. I also want to believe that I’d be successful by then. Whether it’s in the law profession, corporate world or media. Or even politics. The task for the next 3-4 years is to find the path I want to follow.
4. Watching a Live NBA game would be nice too. Or a Pacquiao-Mayweather fight even if they end up fighting when they’re 40 already.
5. Thinking ahead, it would be nice that by that time, I’ve already travelled half the world. Starting from the local islands of the country, out to Southeast Asia, then Asia then Europe!
6. I’m looking forward to a reunion with HS classmates (probably in 2016) and College friends (2019) and see how much we’ve grown after 10 years. And it would be nice if I’d be able to share quite an adventure.
7. Writing a book would be nice too. Collection of poems or short stories. Or even making my own independent filmAnother goal is to read more and more books.
8.  Actually, I love documentaries. And in this decade, I wish I’d be able to make one documentary that would touch people’s lives.
9. To add to my knowledge. To make me a bit more interesting person. Self-development, I guess. or nerd-vanity Haha!
10.  and, A BETTER RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD.

starting anew.

I haven't really thought of the specific things i'd like to achieve this year. Last year was just crazy and just to survive it, i feel really blessed. i've got a feeling this year would be much better. 

i had a talk with Jan a few months back. we talked about finding my "thing". the "thing" being that something that i would wake up everyday to and be inspired to do and be a master of. i've done quite a lot the past 15 years of my life-- played in a varsity basketball team, wrote scripts and joined theater, be in a band, join politics-- but none of it were focused on. so this year, i'll try to find that one thing i really want to get my life on. it's never too late, i guess. 

i want to start by writing on my blog again. so i can keep track of myself. 

2010 was a crazy year. but ive got a lot to be thankful for. for one, it was the same year i first went outside the country to London! Here's one of my best pictures with a crappy camera i brought. haha! 

happy new year  everybody! i wish you all well!

Footnote

February 4, 2008:

Kung minsan

kung minsan lamang kita makakasama, nais ko lamang iparating..
na ikaw ang nagmistulang bituin, sa gabing madilim.
kung minsan lamang kita makakausap, nais ko lamang ipaalam,
ako'y nangungulila sa bawat pamamaalam.

kung minsan ko lamang mahahawakan ang iyong mga kamay, nais ko lamang ipadama..
na narito lamang ako sa iyong tabi.
kung minsan ko lamang makikita ang iyong ngiti, nais ko lamang sabihin..
ako'y natutunaw sa nakabibighani mong pagngiti.

kung minsan lamang kita makakasama,
'di bale nang minsan lamang, basta mayroong minsan. 

November 4, 2010:

Kung minsan (nalang uli)

Kung minsan nalang uli kita makakasama, muli kong ipararating,

Ika’y mananatiling bituin sa gabing madilim.

At kung minsan na lamang kita makakausap, hayaan mong aking sabihin,

Tinig mo’y tamis sa mundong kay pait.

Ang iyong mga kamay, kahit daplis nalang ang paghawak,

Sana’y dama mong ako’y narito pa rin sa iyong tabi.

At ang iyong pagngiti, na sa aki’y nagdadala ng hikbi,

Ay mala-anghel na sa lungkot ko ay pumapawi.

Kung minsan nalang uli, sana'y minsa'y dumating parati.

Ngunit ngayong gabi, aking sasabihin:

Kung minsan nalang uli ang dati'y minsan na minimithi,

sana'y wala nalang muli kung 'di ka rin mananatili.

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"It really sucks to be the footnote in someone else's love story." 
— Brooke Davis

Tumblr Repost!

explodingdog:

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

haha this is a bit gory, but cute nonetheless. In Filipino, this is called KILIG. or to be more exact, KILIG TO THE MAXIMUM LEVEL. haha kilig is a filipino term for being, how would i say it, i do not know. haha i will quote my english teacher back in highschool for better illustration:

“so how do you say “kilig” in english? there’s no exact translation in english. it’s supposed to refer to the sensation that you feel when you’re thrilled because someone you like suddenly notices you or says something that more than pleases you...haha. let’s call it chickychills. do you know how a chick moves its butt and ruffles its feathers when something cold and wet touches it? can you imagine how it feels? for me, that’s how a “kinikilig” person seems to be. cute, actually.”

so there, chickychills it is. and if you’re having so much chikychills, the chikcychill of your life , you will have that feeling of wanting to burst and explode out of extreme happiness. you know when someone turns red whenever teased? like that multipled 100, 000 times.

i think the most memorable part of relationships are those moments when you want to ‘explode’ or when you’re having chickychills. it happens during your first date, or first kiss; the first time you were told that he/she likes you back, or loves you. chickychill moments. but what happens if you run out of firsts? to some lucky ones, they find someone who would make them feel this once in a while. and that, i believe, is true love. :)


This is from my tumblr page. :) just wanted a repost.